So today is the start of my new meds. I am going to be taking Phentermine (again) for weight loss. And something I cannot pronounce for my Hypothyroidism. HOPEFULLY by getting my thyroid under control. I can keep the weight off this time for more then 6 months. Last time I was on Phentermine, I did great! I worked out a tiny bit each day. My appetite was down. And during the course of the 3 months, I ended up losing 38.7 pounds! Fantastic! I looked better, I felt healthier. I kept that weight off for 4 solid months WITHOUT the Phentermine, then the last 2 months, I gained 20 of it back, out of no where. My new doc has put me back on it. And also found out part of the cause was due to my low thyroid.
My starting weight, via doc office is 296. Via my scales is 285.6 (Yes I know they are way off). I will obviously be going by the docs scales more then mine. They are more accurate, and that is what the doc will go by when he determines if I should be on it another month or not. His theory is 3 months on 1-3 months off. Because it can cause accelerated heart rate, he says it is useful to take a break from it. I will not weigh again on my own scales for 1 week. I will weigh every week on Tuesday. I will not weigh again on the Doc scales for 1 month. I must go in each month for a new refill on all my meds. I cannot work out near as much as I'd like to, due to the pain. But will be doing what I can. Plus helping with firewood wear I can (which kind of turns into my strength training, lifting pieces that weigh a consistent- mostly- weight).
I am excited to start this journey again. And cannot wait to be feeling better, and lose weight again. Granted, I was 318 at my biggest last time. SO I am still smaller then that. Very happy that I have kept the weight off (or as much as possible) all this time. For me, keeping weight off wasn't an issue (until the thyroid problem) it was losing the weight I had. Since I had my last child (almost 6 years ago) I haven't been able to fight off the #'s from having him. I hope to eventually be down around 200. But for now. I am aiming for the mini goal of 250. I have a large body frame. Very large. So I know I will never be a size 6 like I was when I was a teeny bopper, but a size 12-16 would be GREAT. Hey Marilyn Monroe was a 14, and she was GORGEOUS! :)
Things were kind of crazy yesterday. And of course, I went on a self pity trip, which I shouldn't have done. But I was just far down in the dumps. Hopefully things will look up soon. Daddy is trying to help us with the whole transfer case for the truck thing. We have AMAZING landlords, who returned part of our rent and said Merry Christmas, and an amazing friend who asked if we had our Christmas shopping done. When Ac mentioned that we had to get our truck fixed first, he offered to pre-pay for 5 loads of firewood, to help us out. That is AWESOME. I know we are truly blessed to be surrounded by such good people! And maybe, when all is said and done, we can take him an extra load or two, just because, and not charge him for them!
I really couldn't ask for better family or set of people around me. Life is a roller coaster ride. So we hang on tight. Several months in a row, things will be fantastic. But every winter, when hubbys work slows down, things go south for us. You would think, after 8 years of him being a farmer, I would be used to it by now. But it just seems to hit us the same way every year. I guess we always have our hopes up that 'This year' would be different. Someday, we won't expect anything else, and maybe that will be when things are different. But for now. Just going to attempt to take it with a grain of salt, and take a deep breath, and remind myself that it could be way worse! I have a wonderful husband who is supporting me in my photography, and Scentsy endeavors. Beautiful children who amaze me and teach me new things (or old things I don't remember) every single day. And just all around good friends and family. We have a roof over our heads. And food in our belly (some months better food then other months, but still have some!) And at least 1 working vehicle. I don't think I could really ask for more! Again, it really could be worse!!!
On that note. I want to remind everyone who is having a hard time this holiday season of that exact phrase. 'It could be worse'. Remind yourself about the blessings that you currently have in your life. Not the ones that you want, or don't have anymore. You cannot dwell on the things you don't have, or the things you cannot change. You can only look to the future, and realize how bright it is. See what is in front of you, not what is behind. I hope each and every one of my friends and blog followers has a very Happy Holiday season!
GOOD LUCK!! Some times when you weigh yourself you have heavier clothing on.. The best time to weigh yourself is in the morning and do it naked.. I have weight issues too.. I go up n down depending on my depression issues!! But Then I look at my family and I see that we are all BIG so I don't know if its bcs I can't control what I eat or if its Just bcs I was made to be BIG.
ReplyDeleteI know that feeling Deanna. My whole family is big also! Thing is. I KNOW I can be somewhat smaller. I don't expect to be a tiny little thing. But I expect to be HEALTHY. And currently I am not. Of course, with thyroid problems, and fibromyalgia, among other things. I won't ever be 100% healthy, but I can make myself HEALTHIER :) The Phentermine really helps me. I LOVEEEEEEEE food! Sweets, baked goods. You name it (So the holidays are horrible for me) And I've always been one to eat more even if I don't need it, because it TASTES good. With the Phentermine, I don't do that. Ex: I used to eat 4 enchiladas or more every time I made them. Just because they were so yummy! When I took Phentermine the first time. I had 1, couldn't force myself to eat more then that even if I wanted to. It was great!
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